You Are More Than Just A Number: My Realization

My whole life, I only knew myself as what is pictured on the left. I didn't love myself at all and didn't care if my emotional eating killed me or not. I just was disgusted. After losing my mom in 2006, I wanted to end it all so I could be with her. She was my best friend. Something told me that I had more to do here on earth and, as I've seen, I still have more to do. Never in a million years would I think Id lose the weight and then get as strong as I am now, inside and out.

People always want to know my secret, how much I used to weigh compared to now, or what made me make the decision to take back control of my life. All those things truly don't matter. I just did it and did it all naturally without pills, diet plans, a trainer, or even support until 3 years ago. You don't always need the support at first. You just need the will to want to be better. We all want to be something or look a certain way. How about we work on wanting to live a long, healthy life. Not just fitting into a swim suit for the summer and gaining the weight back by winter. Live life like it is your last day. One day, it may be. 

For me, I thought I was gonna die because of my weight. Now, that wont be the case. I knew that being way over 300 pounds wasn't a good thing, especially with being young. When my health started to deteriorate, I took action. Please don't wait until its too late. Take back your life and make that change. Who knows, I may have been 400 pounds at my heaviest. That's just a number. 

All I know is, I cant lift heavier than most women and leg press more than what I used to weigh and what I weigh now. Not many people can say they can do that. I am not a winner, loser or fighter. I'm a #Survivor. What about you?