Making the Decision to Change: July 2015

I never thought the day would come when I'd have to end my relationship with my boyfriend. I know very few people get love right on their first try. Very few. I thought what him and I had for 4 years was special. I was wrong though and I had been fighting the last 2 years to keep what we did have, alive. It may not have been the right thing to do but enough was enough. I was tired of being used and was not going to give up my virginity to someone who didn't love me anymore. I was just an object to him. I am a human being and i do have value. I'm not a cheap thing you use then throw away. I'm more than and I'm happier to have his added stress off of my back. I'm sorry to his family who loved me like their own, but, i couldn't take much more.

See Ya

You played my hearstrings,

Doing nothing but lying,

I thought what we had,

Was enough,

But I guess I wasn't,

What you wanted..

You walked around,

On tip toes,

Never telling me,

Where you'd go...

Trust in you,

Had went and gone,

Now I'm stuck,

Writing this break up song...

You treated me,

Like a queen,

Then you go and turn,

Just plain mean,

I didn't give into,

All the pressure,

But I loved you,

Though you'd forget it.

I couldn't take,

Feeling low,

Treated poorly,

By you, so,

I ended it,

Through a text,

See you never again,

And good luck with,

Who's next...

It's time,

To start a new chapter,

Turn the page,

And nothing's there.

Is my life over?

Or is it my own,

Story to write?

I can choose,

The ending,

And make it,

How I like...

No more lies...

No more pain...

No more forcing,

Something,

That wasn't meant to be...