Lacking the Support to Continue Forward

When some people decide to make a change of any kind, they look to either loved ones or friends for support.  When that support isn't there, most people give up and go back to their old ways.  For some reason, I wasn't one of those people.  I made changes for my life without telling or even consoling anyone.  In my earlier posts i even mentioned that no one realized I was even losing weight until I was already 60 pounds down.  I had changed my eating habits and went from being a bump on a log to an active person.  The excess weight wasn't needed so it was burned off.  I didn't need any type of support to keep me motivated. I was focused on getting healthy and wasn't worried what others around me thought.  

This was mostly true until I started getting picked on and made fun of even by my own family.  If it wasn't punching me in my stomach it was grabbing or poking it......my thighs as well.  I was already self conscious and this made it worse for me.  All I wanted to do was improve my chance of living a longer life.  I cried several times, several nights and finally was reaching out for help/support.  The jokes were getting to be a little too much. Some friends actually listened and didn't judge me while others blabbed my personal things to others.  I had trust issues as well from losing so many people in my life that this made me keep even more to myself.  When I decided I should go see a counselor to find some kind of way to cope with the emotional and mental pain, I got questions as to why I needed to go.  It seemed pretty obvious to me but I guess my family was just dumbfounded as to what they were doing was actually affecting me.  They still didn't care but it was something else for them to make fun of.  

I truly didn't have support until i met my boyfriend in September of 2010 and once again when I found the site, myfitnesspal.com Otherwise, I would have been alone.  My major support system currently is still my boyfriend plus I also get a lot of encouragement from my local Planet Fitness where I've gone to for almost 2 years come July. If you need that support to keep you motivated and focus, don't wait for it to find you.  You have to locate what will help you on your journey and use it to your advantage.  I knew right away that it wouldn't be my family so I first turned to friends. some have stuck through all of it with me while I've left several behind.  I had no problem ending communication with them either.  The negative needed to be dropped off of me like dead weight.  

For someone to not have anyone to help them in a process of totally reshaping their life, I think I've done well. I now have the support I need.  I just knew that I had to keep going to be able to find the people I needed to be in my life.  God has helped test me with a lifetime of occurrences and I have passed each test.  Never think that any set back is a set back.  It's just a wall God has put up to see if you will climb it or give up and turn around. don't be the one to walk away.  Grab the rope and heave yourself up and over anything God decides to put in your way.  YOU CAN DO THIS!!